"Listen to your feelings. Listen to your Highest Thoughts. Listen to your experience. Whenever any of these differ from what you have been told by your teachers, or read in your books, forget the words. Words are the least reliable purveyor of TRUTH." - Conversations with God
Thirteen years ago, 3rd December, 2010 was a regular Friday...a busy one at work...print houses tend to get unbelievably busy because for some reason, everyone waits until the last minute to order items they could have comfortably ordered in October. SMH. I was just getting in to my routine when I received a phone call from my sister's boyfriend to rush to Nairobi Hospital where my sister had undergone a minor surgery the previous night. I was to go to ICU. I didn't even know where it was situated but finally found my way and walked in to see a team of doctors and nurses working to resuscitate a patient. And I stood there watching and praying for the patient. It's like I was blind. Or maybe it was grace. Because that patient was my sister. I didn't recognize her on that gurney. Maybe that was a good thing. The team of doctors and nurses seemed very laid back.....nothing like what you watch on tv shows or movies....the desperate actions to pull a patient back to life....
A year ago, April rolled in and you were gone. This is my tribute then and my tribute even now. Hope you have met my Suzs. Miss you. Kwame burst into my life with a smile and a witty remark that had me smiling and enthralled for life. He wasn't just Aunty Susan's nephew, he became my nephew too and a friend who loved me for me and always treated me with respect even though he would tease me mercilessly at times, he never at any one time showed me anything but utter respect. He made sure to stay in touch even in the days of handwritten letters, he would take time out and send me a letter or two. In the recent past whenever he landed, he would call me up to say 'hello, Mama Kris I am in town, let's meet' . And it would always be a surprise and I would be amazed by his thoughtfulness and consideration that in the few days he had in town, he would make time to see me. He did not only tell me I was a queen, he treated me as one and I felt honoured by his undivided atte...
I remember January 2010. I was excited. I took the day off to celebrate my birthday. Jan was definitely a happy month. Then Feb came along and the chips turned. My childhood BFF became a widow from a freaky mo'bike accident, just like that Adnan was gone. And the year took on a new feel, a heaviness that was well, heavy. I kept thinking of Kwix and Iraq and wishing him well. March was great, he got out of Iraq, safe and sound. There was a collective sigh of relief. I don't remember much else apart from planning end March to go on safari. April ambled in and off we went to Baringo, laughter, jokes, serious confessionals from the long drive seemed inevitable. Well, hell broke loose from a simple phone.....a phone call that I thought was bringing me Easter greetings and.....some twenty years later that was the end of my fabulous trip to Baringo...... Kwix was dead. I still remember the pain in the pit of my womb and the tears that wouldn't stop falling. I am not sure what happ...